Perfection Sh!t

This weeks topic was perfectionism. I did not need an article to know that I suffer from perfectionism on an almost daily basis. And the pressure of that is bad enough on oneself. But it is far worse on those close to the perfectionist. I think, knowing that, is about the only hope I have to overcome it.

I don’t like hurting other people. So I had to take an honest look at what my perfectionism was doing to my marriage. And honestly, I didn’t like what I saw. Being unable to see the positive, concrete things that my husband was doing because they didn’t look a certain way; or not hearing words because the sentence structure didn’t fit what I was used to hearing (and therefore assuming it was LESS THAN what I needed or deserved); these were very hard truths.

I could beat myself up for this. That would be easy. Or I could do the harder thing and try to be aware of when I was giving in to my shortcomings. Perhaps that is what I will take away from this week: how can I expect my partner to be perfect when I come into the room with so many imperfections? Shit, I been doing it wrong this whole time. Best to make a change.